9 years.
Sometimes I feel like it's zoomed by, like so many people say. Sometimes I feel like I've already forgotten too many bits and pieces, but most of the time I know that I was present and in the moment and have completely enjoyed you for these nine years. So today I'm not struck by what has passed too quickly, but instead, I linger in the precious here-and-now moments.
Like how sometimes your beauty surprises me. When I'm tucking you in and I slow down for the day and really look... I love the sweet lines of your nose and your full little lips when they curve into a smile; your lovely green eyes that go so deep.
Sometimes I want to hang on your every word. Even when there are lots of words.
Sometimes I think you are so brilliant and so talented that I forget you're only 9.
Sometimes I tell you not to be so silly, but I forget that you need to be silly. So be silly. Because I am wrong.
Sometimes you show more comapassion than I knew was capable at your age. And I'm in awe.
Sometimes I want to pick you up and swing you through the air. But I really can't anymore because you are up to my shoulder and nearly wearing my shoe size and clearly not my baby any longer.
Sometimes you get my jokes. The ones that weren't even intended for you, but you get them. And that brings a wide smile to my lips.
Sometimes I can't wait for you to get older so that we can be friends...because I know you would make such a great friend.
Sometimes you are a spitfire. I just close my eyes, breath deeply and remind myself that those 'skills' will be useful in life when I'm not there to fight your battles.
And of course, sometimes I want to fight all your battles for you.
Sometimes you cuddle...but it's less as you get older and we get busier...I cherish those moments.
Sometimes you make mistakes. And I forgive you. It will always work that way. And I do hope the other way 'round as well.
Sometimes you reach for my hand when we're walking and you have no idea how happy that makes me; that it makes my day.
Sometimes you catch my eye and smile at me knowingly from afar and I feel my heart swell and then squeeze so tight that it takes my breath away. Not because I think you mean everything to me, but because I know you do.